Wings (Levi X Disabled! Medic! Reader)

~Wings~

(Levi x Disabled!Reader)

[Background; your leg was bitten off in a titan incident 1 year ago. Levi was able to save you, but your whole Left Leg had to be replaced with a steel one. You were kicked out of Levi's squad because you were unable to use 3DMG with the weight of the prosthetic. You took over as Survey Corps head medic. Story takes place after Squad Levi's death.]

*Slight Language Warning*





Creak…


You cradled the teacups as you walked, the metal of your prosthetic leg whining with the motion. Another expedition had come to a close, and the casualties had skyrocketed. Not one person returned unscathed, both physically and mentally.

However, you knew one patient was never accounted for.

As the Survey Corps head medic, you oversaw every scratch; you knew every happening within HQ...and yet you had never seen him.

(y/n) was no stranger to Lance Corporal Levi. You used to be one of the best in his squad, after all, one of his closest comrades before-


Creak…

The putrid sound awoke you from your trance, a permanent reminder of what had been done.

You knew Levi would be in grief after the death of his squad; especially Petra Ral.

He would hold his facade up, conjuring the illusion of unbreakable composure. Yet you knew him better than that. You had seen the only remains of Petra; clutched in a young soldier’s hand as he cried over “Ivan’s” final possession.

Only Levi would pull something so undeniably selfless.

Creak….

The prosthetic whined as you came to a halt in front of his office door.

Hands full with steaming tea, you brought a foot to the door, rapping seven times as you always did.

There was some frantic scuffling heard from within the chambers.

“State your name and-”

Creak…

His voice stopped.

A melancholy air formed around the (h/c) girl.

Such horrid sounds could only belong to one, after all.

“I don’t need medical attention, (l/n)”

You flinched at the formalities he felt the need to employ.


“I’m more than just your medic, Levi.”

She heard his breath hitch.


“Leave me be”

Your composure hardened.


“No”

He growled from behind the door.

“I said to Leave Me Be, (l/n). Do I have to hammer it into your thick skul-”

Creeak

Levi fell silent.

“Let me in, Levi, please. I need to check you for the reports,”

The door clicked unlocked, yet never opened. Taking that as an invitation, You softly opened the door with your good foot and stepped inside.

Levi sat hunched over on his couch, cradling his ankle; hair messy and eyes downcast.

With every step, there were more creaks.

With every creak, Levi flinched in pain.


Wordlessly, the medic sat next to him, placing the cup in his hands.
The steam caressed tensed features as he sipped from the cup, brow unknitting slightly.

“Do you want to tal-”

“Shut up and do your job, (l/n)”

You sighed in discontent, looking over at Levi as you removed your medical wraps. You began to treat his purple, suprisingly swollen ankle.

“My job is to help you, Levi. What have I done to deserve this from you? What have I done wrong?”

His eyes rose to meet yours, in a mix of anger and somberness.

“You’ll help by leaving me be!”

The girl shook her head.

“I’m not leaving until I understand what’s wrong, Levi.”

The man raked a hand through his hair, exhaling deeply.

“What do you need to know?”

Agitation laced in his otherwise monotone voice as you straightened, finishing up your wrapping to meet his gaze.

“Are you alright?”

“Is that it? Is that all you need to know?! I’m fine. So leave”

“Honest answer, Levi” You growled, slowly losing patience.

“I......I’m sorry (l/n), but it is none of your concern. Now please leave.”

You abruptly stood, prosthetic creaking loudly.

“No, Levi. It’s been a year since we actually spoke, and I’m sick and tired of being left in the dark. Ever since the injury, You-”

“Leave.”

Levi’s voice was firm, shaking slightly.

“Levi, listen to me-” you pleaded

“I said leave.”


“Please, Levi-”

“Leave right this instant (f/n)!” Levi yelled, eyes burning with rage.

“No! Will you shut up and listen for once in your fucking life?!” You screamed, teacup smashing to the ground.

Levi fell silent.

You never screamed.

Ever.

The medic was panting, (e/c) orbs filled with pent up anger.

“After all the pain you’ve caused me, Levi, the least you can do is answer my fucking question! What. is. wrong. with. you!”

Shock etched itself onto his face.

Your glare softened, realizing the damage you’d inflicted.

“Oh god, Levi. I’m so sorr-”

“It’s not your fault, (f/n).”

Levi slumped back onto his bed, running long thin fingers through onyx tresses.

“They were the closest people to me after Farlan and Isabel left. She was the last thing I hadn’t ruined”

You slowly sat back down, steel leg squeaking.

Levi’s voice cracked as he spoke.

“Everything I come into contact with gets ruined.”

You opened your mouth to counter, but Levi promptly cut you off.

“Farlan and Isabel died because I was to weak; My squad died because I was too weak;thousands have died because I was to weak. You’ll never walk the same, you’ll never fly again because I. Was. To. Weak!”


Tears began to well in his brooding eyes as they met your concerned (e/c) ones.

“I distanced myself from you because I didn’t want to see you get damaged further at my hands. I clipped your wings so you’d never fly, but was to weak to watch you try. Petra and the Squad were the only thing near to me I hadn’t ruined, and now...now there’s no one left.”

Tears welled up in your eyes as he sobbed into his shaking palms.

“Levi…”

Slowly, you wrapped him in a warm embrace, tracing circles into his back as he struggled to repress his cries.

“I’m sorry (f/n)..”


He choked into your hair.

”I’m so sorry, (f/n)”


“It’s alright, Levi…”

You soothed, massaging the countless knots in his back.


“No! It’s not!’ He cried, clutching you tightly.

“I loved you, and I just left you!”

You froze.

“Someone like you deserves something better. You're the most beautiful, kind, patient, amazing person there is, and I... I’m just a fucking coward!”

Levi loved...you? All this time, all this pain he caused himself was because he loved you?

You pulled away from the hug, looking up at Levi’s tear stained face. Breathing shaky, you began to speak.

“Levi...If anything, I don’t deserve to love you. You are the strongest, most beautiful, courageous, and selfless person I’ll ever meet. People who join the Survey Corps know they risk death; that’s not your fault. You made their losses mean something, Levi, and that means everything. You hurt me only by hurting yourself. So please, all I ask is that you forgive yourself. You are the only person you need to apologize to.”

Levi looked at you in surprise, widened eyes filling with an unknown emotion.

“Do...do you need me to leave?”

Levi remained silent.

Taking that as him wanting you to go, you stood up.



Creeak…

Levi’s hand grasped onto yours. You barely had time to register his actions before his lips were on yours, gently conveying all the apologies he had pent up in the past year. You moved your lips against his, reassuring affections you’d never uttered until now. His hands cradled your face as if it were porcelain; Your hands ran through his hair as if it were prized silk.

Breaking away for air, Levi looked down at you tenderly, lips twitching into a slight smile.

“Stay...please. You’re all I have left”

You smiled, burying your face into the crook of his neck.

“Levi...I’m always here. I always am, and always will be”

Levi shrugged off his jacket, climbing under the sheets of his bed. You followed, curling into a ball within Levi’s warm grasp.

“You never clipped my wings, Levi. You just have to teach me to fly again”